Race, but with yourself..

When we grow older, we learn that it is important to respect ourselves, and try not to mimic others.

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When we are young, our parents, in almost all families, ask us to look at others like a neighbour’s son, a cousin, or an acquaintance and behave and become like them. We grow up thinking we need to become like others. And the whole life we spend doing that. We learn that our self, and we teach the same to our children. But don’t you think doing that, clearly disrespects God’s creation?

Everyone in this world is made unique, not for the purpose of becoming like others and imitating them. We are made unique, because we all have the potential to become the one that we all seek to become. But what we are taught when we are young, makes us crib for it our whole life, and waste life, in becoming like "them".

We don't need to become like others. Cultures which had set traditions, they had done so to maintain peace (peace brings happiness ) in the communities. But today, we have become smart enough to understand where our boundaries lie(because we have enough means to understand the lives and limitations of others). Our boundary lies only in one fact that we cannot make others as well ourselves  unhappy. Rest all which happens in this world, all the rules that are set, are only set to make this motive accomplish. World peace, territory boundaries, terrorism, everyone who deals with these heavy topics have the same motto, to make people happy. But we don't generally do so. Gradually everything becomes complicated, because everyone deviates from their line of action(reason being that human mind wants to compete).

Life is easy, if just for once, you could keep the jealousy and the race to become like others aside. 

I am saying this because I have felt it personally. 

I often say I am quite saintly, often I think in a way which does not relate to world affairs, yet I am living in this world. Being saintly and having different line of thought, I am also often discarded from the world. When I was small, my mother once asked me to imagine what would happen if my fellow classmate and a friend of mine will score much more than I will do. She thought that imagining it, the jealousy that I will feel, will help me score more than him. I told my mother that I don't feel anything even if he scores more. My mother was terribly hurt that day, and she thought I would never do anything in my life. She thought that I do not have this competitiveness in me. When at the age of 9-10 I tried to explain to her, that I must compete with myself, and not others, she said I did not had the right to explain things to her cuz I was not as experienced. 

After that day, this incident often realized in front of me. I often fell in situations where I really had to decide and feel the "jealousy", and to my surprise, I have never felt it yet. I donno is it due to my "competitive-lessness", or its due to any other reason which I could call as "wisdom". I concede to the fact that I have never excelled in everything I have done, the reason could very well be the lack of jealousy and competitiveness in my being. Whether you call it my excuse but I say that I have not excelled in those things because I never have liked them in order to break boundaries and work for that particular things. 

But excelling in a thing could also differ depending on different perspectives. I wont go there, cuz, that's absolutely different topic to be talked about.

What I want to convey is, it is true and correct to be competitive, but if you could do that with yourself, life will become much more easy. Everyone will be at peace in their minds. These anger, stresses and feelings of loathes will expurgate from all minds and life will become easy to lead, which is what all of us seek. 

We dont need to worry about how world will run, we only need to run ourselves flawlessly, and if we cant, we could at least try, cuz who knows, after a few generations possibly we could attain "RAM RAJ" the perfect world that we all seek.

I am not here to preach, but this is what I deeply feel. If anyone has the hesitation and starts thinking about the repercussions, I assure u that it is tough in the beginning, but it is where you will find your solace, and life will definitely become easy.
It is my personal experience.

Respect yourself. Be the way you are. Identify what you like and what you want to be like(not like others but the unique one like yourself. It is possible). There's nothing wrong with you or what you do, cuz after you are dead nothing matters, and until you are living you can make things "matter" what you want to make "matter".

goal of life!

I spend a lot of time thinking about life and its goals.
I met someone once.
I met him through internet.
The effect that he had on me,
I think its gonna last forever.

I always or at least every now and then thought that life is worthless. That whatever we do is meaning less. Its all to go in vain. Because after all when we r dead nothing matters. And when we are living, we crib about everything that we have with us and around us. I see the thoughts of a common man. And with my perspective, i find his troubles futile. Sometimes I feel too saintly. Well, then whats the goal of life. I think Life has no goals. We are literally not sent for any purpose by God. I donno the reasons how we enter into this world to have this complicated thought process, and if I start discussing about what I feel about all that I guess the entire blog space will exhaust. I would just try and confine myself to a particular thought of goal of life.

The guy who I met through internet, was an amazing person. Actually he was quite like me. He never enjoyed partying, and stuffs like that, but he sure did enjoy his life(the time he is having to live). What I learned from him was cohering with my thought process.
See according to me, life is futile and there is no purpose of living. But I am compelled to live in all that happy and sorrow moments until  I am dead. I don't really like to be sorrow full. So why not live happily. Why not just make each moment worth of something. My thoughts, already have the potential to discard negativeness. And when there is no negativeness, all I have is neutrality and positivity. Both of which could make me and people around me happier. And therefore I will live happily which I like to do. Nothing else matters.. right!
Actually not only this trying new stuffs may lead me to troubles, but then those troubles dont bring me sorrow, They just bring troubles, which are problems, and I can spend time of my life finding solutions to them. Hence I will always be engaged in it, and not in stuffs which will make me sorrow full. I like this concept. I have much more to add, but I needa go right now!

I hope to see your comments and your remarks over my thoughts, and I would also like to read your thoughts.

Take good care of your time
ciao

the dream in reality

one night, like graphite,
dabbed in the moonlight
I was born,
born to the real life

the thought was beautiful
it made life cheerful,
and i was the reason
for the passion

I was the dream,
the reason for someone's being
in my naivete,
they were happy

huh! and they tried to realize
That was the day
which destroyed
my piousness , my truth, my reality

And so they had to pay.
They said,
I was meant to be true.
they should have known,

dream is not the truth.
I feel pity on the beings

each day was their day to suffer
they should have not bourne
into tht path to savor
I was where I was meant to be

should I laugh?
should I cry?
I dont want them to try
I know it is all futile
why can't they live in the happiness
of the pie in the sky?

And days passed
they continued
I dont understand ,
what strengthened their hopes

I wanted to explain,
I was meant to be dreamt
not to be wasted
in the acts of those imprudents

What!
does it look like this when am alive
they have given me the life
I have witnessed their troubles
they did it for me
and finally landed to this reality

should I laugh?
should I cry?
I never wanted them to try
but now I want to lie

and to recognize
That i exist in the light
I wanted to destroy
the faith which I
never wanted to descry

Dreams can live in reality
and I have come out of my anxiety.

Show life ..U r living!

Living through the maladies
Surviving those tragedies
Will give you the confidence
To realize your fantasies

Whether its love,lust or desire
whether its passion,obsession or fire
If u made it through to the end
You know,the way to acquire.

If maladies didnt stop u
If the tragedies wer'nt enuf to pause u,
U have crossed baby
the toughest ring of fire
And so I assure U,
U'r the one,made to play the lyre

Make life to sing ur song,
because it must be proud
to whom it belong.

I dont write about realitic things??

People write about nation, world , politics , sports, and all the "knowledgeable things"that can be , and I soemtimes think tht i dont have enough prowess to share my viewpoint on those topics.
I somehow find these topics to be immensely boring,not in the sense that they are boringin their existence But I find their discussion to be immensely boring.sometimes I feel that I am above these topics, which might sound too egoistic of me but there is a reason to this belief.
I have lived in an enviroment where I was forced to understand the nature of poeple and to categorize them in some way.
It was a kind of political enviroment, and so I have kindof inheritedthe quality of observing people and understanding their nature , behaviour,faults and strongpoints, which leads me to have a larger view.
Mixed with my own nature, or the idiosyncrasy of my being ,and these experiences I find evrything happening around me to be very mundane.
I find a strange kinship with evrything.I feel that I know the nature of what's happeningand how is it happening, or what will it lead to.
I feel that evrything ultimately demonstrates the same nature, and hence the result, in some or the other way.This also provokes me to be calm , because ,even if for a particular moment of a being's behavoiur seems to be nasty or intolerable,I know that its not permanent, and I even have the notion of its cosequence.
In one of my article called "Development", I have written that I dont believe that the world has not developed.In fact I truly belive that world has developed and its develping to its core and would end up as a RAM RAJ.
The faith that I have manifested in the above paragraph, is quite akin to this article of mine.

A glance back at my life

A Glance Back At My Life

Under the dark velvet sky , the breeze gushed through my ears,sitting on the smooth glittering pebbles near the sea,I was thinking about the last few years of my life.

Playing with the cold, scented long hairs I felt how have I become so beautiful.

Being a teenager or an early twenties girl, I was chubby, with a prominent belly and a busty chest which never allowed me to wear any gorgeous sheathes.

When I look back to the last two -three years I feel I have lived a very complete and a perfect life, which had always been my dream.

I always dreamt of this exotic extravaganza, which has allowed me to land up here.

Yes, it feels really great to be so near to your dream destination.

Its not a materialistic thing for me.

It is an out of the world experience.

I am a successful software engineer, and am very near to have a business of my own.

I have visited lot many places of this world, have tasted hundred's of exotic

cuisines and wines and am heading towards exploring a few more new horizons.

In all this, my family was the most important thing that I had and we have been doing

really great, laughing together through the bad times , and crying with our heads joined

in our happiest moments.

And then this guy came into my life.

He was not much of a contention issue in the family, as they found him in love with me; it truly has been a great journey. I must say life has shaped up good.

There he is, standing with a refreshing glass of drink in his hand. I guess he is made for me.The dim, hazel light of moon creates a silhouette of his structure and I can't resist myself from looking at him so desiringly.

Sometimes I feel, that its his touch that makes me so beautiful, even prettier than a princess. The caresses of his fingers that runs over my nape, is just unbelievable. Its his eyes that makes me so beautiful, so untouched, so godly!

Its the warmth of his love that has filled in me the confidence to achieve what I wanted. 

I have troubled my family a lot many times about lot many issues, small and big.

I always used to be sick, and if not that I had some trouble in the school or college,

or I remember the times when I was struggling for a job.

But over everything, it was my brother who made me dream, made me try to realize them. This guy and my brother have become good friends. It is the best thing which I could want for.

Like parents have plans for their kids, my brother and I, together made plans for our parents. Me and my brother together constantly pried on our parent’s likes and dislikes . And then we planned where we would settle them and what all facilities would we arrange for them after we become independent. Now the time has come to realize those plans.

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As a girl , I had so many fantasies . Fantasies quite similar to those that happen in a fairy tale . I always wanted to keep that part safe and secure, until someone passionate enough about me , enters into my life and tries to penetrate into the inner me . The one who could think of me as his fairy . I thought that such things and such guys exist only in the fairy tales, so I wanted to be happy without realizing my reveries .

I was afraid to think that they could be realized, but he showed me that my fear was not true . What is true is the affection that we feel about someone and the fact, that there is someone for everyone in this world.

The ups and downs that occur in one's life are the reason why life is so interesting and that is the reason ,why not the majority of population wants to end their life, in frustration of their problems.

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To end it I would like to quote few lines, that I wrote when I felt very vulnerable , I was going for an exam of my life and was very nervous that day, and these lines came up.

To love is to desire

To live is to accomplish

To crave is the nature.

And, to earn is the destiny.

Feeling so vulnerable

I know I am capable,

The destiny can however

Lead you anywhere

But passion will however

Make it surrender,

Before my nature and my desire

And I will continue….

A Thought

living anonymously on a certain side of life,being overwhelmed by ur own thoughts daily isnt enough to be happy.we need to accomplish something in material.Accomplishments need "hard work" or rather "smart work" as we should tag it .
But that's not enough to live either.
To live and to be happy or rather successful ,few more things are needed -Passion and Luck.
Passion to drive urself to do Smart work..and Luck to have it accomplished successfully.
Actually life is so mysterious and yet so predictable at times.
From nadir to zenith ,how one can hop,no clue yet i have.
But from zenith to nadir..no clue u need to have, it is certain that it will happen. like the gravitational pull of earth attracts everything that goes up to bring it down ,similarly..
Well, the black holes , the galaxies , the stars , the quasars,all are a part of this destiny after all .
So are we ,so incomparable and yet so comparable .
If one searches upon the answers to these questions, the answers would not be far, albeit not identical either ,for each person.this is because the initiation to the query search,to the path and lastly to the answers are so dependent on perspectives.
But in the end they all benefit u in the same way.
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