the dream in reality

one night, like graphite,
dabbed in the moonlight
I was born,
born to the real life

the thought was beautiful
it made life cheerful,
and i was the reason
for the passion

I was the dream,
the reason for someone's being
in my naivete,
they were happy

huh! and they tried to realize
That was the day
which destroyed
my piousness , my truth, my reality

And so they had to pay.
They said,
I was meant to be true.
they should have known,

dream is not the truth.
I feel pity on the beings

each day was their day to suffer
they should have not bourne
into tht path to savor
I was where I was meant to be

should I laugh?
should I cry?
I dont want them to try
I know it is all futile
why can't they live in the happiness
of the pie in the sky?

And days passed
they continued
I dont understand ,
what strengthened their hopes

I wanted to explain,
I was meant to be dreamt
not to be wasted
in the acts of those imprudents

What!
does it look like this when am alive
they have given me the life
I have witnessed their troubles
they did it for me
and finally landed to this reality

should I laugh?
should I cry?
I never wanted them to try
but now I want to lie

and to recognize
That i exist in the light
I wanted to destroy
the faith which I
never wanted to descry

Dreams can live in reality
and I have come out of my anxiety.

Show life ..U r living!

Living through the maladies
Surviving those tragedies
Will give you the confidence
To realize your fantasies

Whether its love,lust or desire
whether its passion,obsession or fire
If u made it through to the end
You know,the way to acquire.

If maladies didnt stop u
If the tragedies wer'nt enuf to pause u,
U have crossed baby
the toughest ring of fire
And so I assure U,
U'r the one,made to play the lyre

Make life to sing ur song,
because it must be proud
to whom it belong.

I dont write about realitic things??

People write about nation, world , politics , sports, and all the "knowledgeable things"that can be , and I soemtimes think tht i dont have enough prowess to share my viewpoint on those topics.
I somehow find these topics to be immensely boring,not in the sense that they are boringin their existence But I find their discussion to be immensely boring.sometimes I feel that I am above these topics, which might sound too egoistic of me but there is a reason to this belief.
I have lived in an enviroment where I was forced to understand the nature of poeple and to categorize them in some way.
It was a kind of political enviroment, and so I have kindof inheritedthe quality of observing people and understanding their nature , behaviour,faults and strongpoints, which leads me to have a larger view.
Mixed with my own nature, or the idiosyncrasy of my being ,and these experiences I find evrything happening around me to be very mundane.
I find a strange kinship with evrything.I feel that I know the nature of what's happeningand how is it happening, or what will it lead to.
I feel that evrything ultimately demonstrates the same nature, and hence the result, in some or the other way.This also provokes me to be calm , because ,even if for a particular moment of a being's behavoiur seems to be nasty or intolerable,I know that its not permanent, and I even have the notion of its cosequence.
In one of my article called "Development", I have written that I dont believe that the world has not developed.In fact I truly belive that world has developed and its develping to its core and would end up as a RAM RAJ.
The faith that I have manifested in the above paragraph, is quite akin to this article of mine.

A glance back at my life

A Glance Back At My Life

Under the dark velvet sky , the breeze gushed through my ears,sitting on the smooth glittering pebbles near the sea,I was thinking about the last few years of my life.

Playing with the cold, scented long hairs I felt how have I become so beautiful.

Being a teenager or an early twenties girl, I was chubby, with a prominent belly and a busty chest which never allowed me to wear any gorgeous sheathes.

When I look back to the last two -three years I feel I have lived a very complete and a perfect life, which had always been my dream.

I always dreamt of this exotic extravaganza, which has allowed me to land up here.

Yes, it feels really great to be so near to your dream destination.

Its not a materialistic thing for me.

It is an out of the world experience.

I am a successful software engineer, and am very near to have a business of my own.

I have visited lot many places of this world, have tasted hundred's of exotic

cuisines and wines and am heading towards exploring a few more new horizons.

In all this, my family was the most important thing that I had and we have been doing

really great, laughing together through the bad times , and crying with our heads joined

in our happiest moments.

And then this guy came into my life.

He was not much of a contention issue in the family, as they found him in love with me; it truly has been a great journey. I must say life has shaped up good.

There he is, standing with a refreshing glass of drink in his hand. I guess he is made for me.The dim, hazel light of moon creates a silhouette of his structure and I can't resist myself from looking at him so desiringly.

Sometimes I feel, that its his touch that makes me so beautiful, even prettier than a princess. The caresses of his fingers that runs over my nape, is just unbelievable. Its his eyes that makes me so beautiful, so untouched, so godly!

Its the warmth of his love that has filled in me the confidence to achieve what I wanted. 

I have troubled my family a lot many times about lot many issues, small and big.

I always used to be sick, and if not that I had some trouble in the school or college,

or I remember the times when I was struggling for a job.

But over everything, it was my brother who made me dream, made me try to realize them. This guy and my brother have become good friends. It is the best thing which I could want for.

Like parents have plans for their kids, my brother and I, together made plans for our parents. Me and my brother together constantly pried on our parent’s likes and dislikes . And then we planned where we would settle them and what all facilities would we arrange for them after we become independent. Now the time has come to realize those plans.

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As a girl , I had so many fantasies . Fantasies quite similar to those that happen in a fairy tale . I always wanted to keep that part safe and secure, until someone passionate enough about me , enters into my life and tries to penetrate into the inner me . The one who could think of me as his fairy . I thought that such things and such guys exist only in the fairy tales, so I wanted to be happy without realizing my reveries .

I was afraid to think that they could be realized, but he showed me that my fear was not true . What is true is the affection that we feel about someone and the fact, that there is someone for everyone in this world.

The ups and downs that occur in one's life are the reason why life is so interesting and that is the reason ,why not the majority of population wants to end their life, in frustration of their problems.

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To end it I would like to quote few lines, that I wrote when I felt very vulnerable , I was going for an exam of my life and was very nervous that day, and these lines came up.

To love is to desire

To live is to accomplish

To crave is the nature.

And, to earn is the destiny.

Feeling so vulnerable

I know I am capable,

The destiny can however

Lead you anywhere

But passion will however

Make it surrender,

Before my nature and my desire

And I will continue….